Some people are just too ignorant, they think they can hurt me so easy. Come on lah, don't you know I'm a mother now? Being a mother, I've grown ups a lot. I'm more matured now, become more patient. How's that RM2k can affect my life? You think I'll let you do that to me?
Some people are just too ignorant, they think I'll crash and burn over that RM2k. Hahah. When I decided to bring my child to specialist, that's mean my husband and I can afford it. If we can get back the money, it's good then. I'm happy. But if we can't then it's fine. I'm not sad! We just want what is best for our child.
Who are you to react as if my whole life, our entire family is depending to that small amount of money. Who are you to react as if we will face tremendous financial crisis over that small amount of money. Get over it.
Do you guys know I have to face this annoying person every single day? When I say 'annoying' what I meant was person who is actually mean, manipulative and downright evil (I'm not being emotional, if you are im my shoes you would know). Sometimes these can be harder to spot, because she'll often make you feel like you're the problem. She'll play on your guilt, conceal their evil in altruism and exploit your sympathies for her. Once you realize what's really happening, it's already too late. You are the one who paid the cost.
Mak cik, why don't you focus on your own life instead of desperately eyeing on my beautiful life? How many times do I have to stress here, I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU! So why bother? If you feel so relief, so happy to see I'm somber and dull, I hope you enjoy the disappointment. Because I've never been better. You might not know this but my heart is big enough to say you're forgiven. Yes, I Forgive You =) But still, I will suggest you to get some treatment : this is highly recommended for you.
Yesterday, I gave myself a thought. This is a big lesson for me because I've became less and less cautious towards you lately. And whenever you saw there's a chance, you stabbed my back.
Is it my fault to continuously show you some respects, offer you kindness despite of what you do to me in the past? Repeatedly take credit for my efforts, blame me for your mess. No, I don't think so. I'll keep being generous, sympathetic, helpful, kind to you because at the end of the day, Mak cik, everybody around us know the one who need sympathy is YOU!
Update: Teringat lagu ni, so nak letak liriknya dekat sini.
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